Category Archives: Random thoughts

Apply to US colleges as an international students (part 1)

The application process is my no means finished, but the main work is done and now I’m free like a bird.

One week before my last deadline, I already planned everything I’m going to do after I finish my application, simply because I just can’t wait to move on. Applying is a long, stressful process to many students. It’s complicated and competitive, and much more so to international students who need financial aid. And guess what? You have to show off yourself in the best way possible in your application. If you are a very private person like me, congratulations! Now brace yourself for the challenge.

It all begins with the personal statement. I spent two years preparing for it. Three months of writing, and 21 months of trying new, sometimes really stupid things, thinking and writing and reading, just to find out as much as possible about who I really am.

So that’s why I have to thank Common Application for this. I am required to write an essay about myself, and to me it’s the most important part of my application. Of course there are many other parts that play an equally large, or larger role in colleges’ decisions, but the personal statement, along with extracurricular activities, is the only thing that I can almost fully control. I can’t control the standardized tests (and yes, my SAT test did go wrong). Every school regard GPA as important, but little do they know that scoring in Vietnamese is usually a mystery.

Also, I want to be a good writer, someone who master the way she convey her ideas and use writing as her weapon, and believe good writing requires serious research and serious thinking. I prepared for two years for just an essay, but it’s something that affect my future a great deal. A good essay might get me into the college of my dream. And even if it doesn’t, I already somehow understand myself, so now I am much more confident and happy than ever before. It’s definitely worth it.

 

 

 

 

 

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Helping people

Whenever someone gets sick, or injured, or needs emotional help, it seems like I am always the one most ignorant. I don’t know. Sometimes I don’t want to help someone because I’m scared of being incapable. I’m scared I will just stand there like a fool and make the problem worse. So I let someone else do the work and all I can do is to ask you how’s it going. But I do care. I do. And no matter how hard I try to show it, my awkwardness just gets in the way, only to make you think that I am fake, that I just do it not to feel shame.


Random thoughts 2: Parents

Your parents are usually stuck with you from the past. So they find it hard to understand you in the present. Don’t be sad about it. Don’t let it hinder you from achieving your dream. But don’t be angry with them about it either. They aren’t capable of understanding you, but they love you no matter what.


Random thoughts 1: Writing fiction and Mom

– I wrote a fanfic about Bill and Kristen on Wattpad. I felt a little guilty at first but now it’s ok for me. That was the first full fictional story I wrote so I had to choose the idea that gives me the most inspirations. I don’t know why but their relationship haunts me. And I have a lot of different ideas and stories about them in my head so I may keep writing similar things more. I might sound like a creepy fan girl for some people but I don’t care. I have crazy imagined stories and now I want to write them down. Fanfic will be first, then I’ll write my other things when my writing get better.

– The hardest thing for me to work on now is the pace of the story. It’s so important to me because I read a lot of different things and whenever I felt that a story lacked something, I noticed on second read that its pace seemed off. I also saw someone mention the importance of pace in some website. Great authors always develop a pace that serve their purpose perfectly. Right now some of the scenes in my head do not come out as good on the page. I have to find out what’s wrong and make them better. I know it’s just a fanfic but I still want it to be good. It still has to evoke imagination and emotion. The fact that it’s a fanfic doesn’t mean that it’s not written by a good writer. In fact I’ve read two very amazing ones called Gag Reel and The Last Call. Reminds me again, I have to store them in my computer!

– My mom just complained about me not helping her and I got angry again. Come on Huong! There’s way to forgive your mother and let her complain without feeling like a piece of shit! If you can’t help her let her be angry about it. You are the one who can’t be angry. Even it’s her fault, you can’t be angry, at least don’t be like that so constantly, because the best version of you is forgiving. Remember that, forgiving!

I don’t forgive people because I’m weak, I forgive them because I am strong enough to know people make mistakes.” – Marilyn Monroe